More Drugs...how did they do it in the "olden days" ?

Diazepam...that's what they gave me
No Catherine Diaz before me, so this stuff can't be my kind of fun.
A months stuff they gave me (at my NHS prescription cost) probably not clever (well not the way I feel right now)
It's supposed to relieve the symptoms of anxiety that I suffer...like as it can..not a hope...really.
I'd rather the root cause was sorted and not just the symptoms treated

Well at least I'm consistant

Well in the way that my head works anyway.
The nightmares are back with a vengeance, four terrible nights on a row. I don't want to back to the being afraid to go to sleep situation.
After I had my initial bad spell in 1998 when I got divorced,  I never dreamt or at least never noticed I did and had no noticeable sleep loss.
So why the hell do I now?  Maybe my life is more complicated now? It was just as shit then as it is now, just with increased money problems now.
Maybe it's the feeling that my life is not going to get better than it is at the moment. That's a pretty horrible thought to me to be honest....I hate being me
I don't want to give up, but I don't think I have a lot to look forward to considering what life's been like so far for me.
You never know